Thursday, January 28, 2016

Long Term Investment

Gosh it has been forever again. It's just so hard to keep updated here. I can't believe it's already 2016 and we are one month in for that matter.
So I just wanted to check in for a quick minute and get updated on what's been going on.
My daughter just informed me she will be 17 in less than five years! I think I had a mini freak out. She has grown up so much in the last year. I am not sure I am ready for all that. Just a few days ago she was running around saying "Swiper no Swiping!!" and Dora was our hero. Now she is all about the Magcon boys....whatever that is.
My son is now playing basketball and he loves it. He's pretty good too. His entire class is full of great athletes. He still loves baseball as his favorite. It's mine too but basketball is growing on me.
On January 4th I joined SkinnyMeg's diet bet. I am almost there! we have until Sunday I believe and I am really buckling down for the last two pounds. I really need to win!
Today I started something I've been wanting to do for a really long time. I joined a gym. A friend of mine has been after me to join her for a long time but I just couldn't figure out how to make it work with the kids. I finally just nailed down and asked my babysitter from the summer if she would watch the kids 3 nights a week so I could go. Of course she said yes and I was happy. It's only a few hours and I just have to get over the Mommy Guilt and do it. I have to invest in me so I can be here for my kids in the long run. I'm less than three years from 40 and if not now when.
I not only joined the gym but started with a personal trainer. My husband and I have talked a lot about is and he is all for it. He always supports anything I want to do. However the mommy guilt is a hard thing for me . I never get my hair or nails done. I told myself if I would avoid Ross and/or TJ Maxx for the next 6 weeks I will have more than made up for it. I know that sounds silly but those are my weaknesses and really the only other time I spend money on me.
 I am already so sore and I know tomorrow is going to be worse. I bought a foam roller and tried. LOL. I will get the hang of it, I'm sure. I was really surprised by some of the stuff I could do. The girls I am working out with are great too.
So today is the day. I've made the long term investment. I've done great on the diet bet but now I am going to kick it up a notch and really focus on my diet and kick those workouts.  

Wednesday, September 16, 2015

A Little Housekeeping

Hi All!

So for the last few days I have been really thinking about which direction to go with this blog. To date no one that I know in real life (at least that I know of) besides my husband knows about this blog. I started this blog almost four years ago. I had blogged before but now I think that has just disappeared, I'm not even sure how to get back to that, but this started as a journal, diary of such for me to connect with other people, share and document my story of getting fit and becoming more active. I have not blogged much over the last year or so. I want to change that....

I want to share more and I am thinking of sharing with more people, including some I know on the regular.

My questions for all of you is..

1. I want a new design for my reboot. I can post and share all day but I need help with the design aspect. Anyone know a good designer?

2. I also want to edit some posts to private. How do I do that? I looked through the settings and couldn't figure it out. That may not be possible. Since I'm struggling and have for so long I would like to ease into this. Like, I want to share on IG and Twitter and maybe even Facebook. I don't want to delete my history here I just want to start a little fresher and in the future open things wide open.... Does that make sense?? Maybe not...I know once I share there is no going back. :)

I want to focus more on everything else in my life. I don't just want this to be about a fitness journey because that is taking forever.. really though I want to share more about my family and some other ideas I have. Let's just say my daughter has big plans... Oh I guess she can be added to the list of IRL people who know about this.

So does can anyone help out here?? I would appreciate it so much!!

Meanwhile.. It's ipsy day and I can't wait to get into this...

Monday, August 24, 2015

50 Days

It is so hard to keep these posts going. I keep thinking, I need to post this or that but don't take the time to sit down and actually do it. I know there may not be any or many people still here reading but I am going to keep on documenting because one day this will be a story worth reading!
Today I had to post...
Today is 50 days since I really buckled down and started trying again.
Now I have had a few bad days here and there, a few moments of binge but I did not let it get me down. I picked myself up and got on track the next meal or more waiting until that Monday that never comes. I read one of my fave's blog post from the other day and she is so true! They are always watching. This time I have included my kids. I tell them they are my trainers.

 I make no bones about where my health is today. I have so much weight to lose and I do not want my kids to have to deal with this. I think me sharing with them the problems I have will help them. My daughter is 11 and I have noticed so many changes in her over the last few months. She is paying much more attention to what she is eating and what she is wearing.
50 days ago I started this challenge with a group on Facebook and it is awesome. I also have really been focusing on my macros more than how many calories I am eating. I really feel like macro counting is life changing for someone who has counted calories her whole life.
I have not had them professionally done yet. I used the calculator on IIFYM website then adjusted a little by talking with some of the other ladies in the challenge group.
Currently I am at a goal of 123 grams of protein a day, 164 grams of carbs, and 55 fats. That makes 1644 calories a day.
At first it was really hard to hit that protein goal. I was eating beef jerky all day everyday. Now its not so bad. I eat most of the same stuff everyday with some great new recipes.
This is yummy but I'm still going to tweek it more.
One other change from the last 50 days is a smile. I feel so much better!
Plus I wish my hair would fix that good everyday!

Friday, August 7, 2015

Happy 37th!

I can't believe another year has already gone by for me. I was just 19 the other day...but now I am 37. Crazy how I am almost 40 :/ umm that happened fast.
I've been home alone all week. My husband has been gone for work and my kids have been gone to "Grandfather's Farm" all weekend. My daughter started calling it that when she was little. We watched a lot of Franklin. I miss that little cartoon.
SO..I have had a lot of time for focusing on me. I have only had to plan meals for me and had plenty of time to workout. I've been lonesome but it has been a nice little break except for the night my kittens tried to give me a heart attack.

BTW..I'm in that 1%
Since today was my birthday I was determined to get in a good workout last night. It was 99 degrees with a heat index of one hundred freaking eight at 7:30 pm but I went any ways. I had a terrible pace but I burned a lot of calories. I ended up back at my car at exactly 3.6 miles and I thought that was perfect place to stop as it was my last day as 36.

Since I have been doing so well with my challenge for the past 4 weeks and spot on for the past week I am determined to not let something like my birthday deter me. I got up this morning and made myself chocolate protein pancakes. I used Skinny Meg's base recipe  and it was delish. I used chocolate Shakeology as my protein. I have some Snickerdoodle protein ordered and hope it will be just as delicious. I topped with some Sugar Free Fat Free chocolate pudding mix mixed with Triple Zero Vanilla Yogurt and a little almond milk and some TruWhip. It was a little more calories than I usually eat for breakfast but I was not hungry until lunch so it all evened out without a snack.

Finishing off the day with beautiful birthday flowers from my kids.
I can't wait to pick them up!!


Wednesday, July 22, 2015


Hello....Anybody There....well even if there's not it's time I got back to this. Got back to being accountable.

So I've been thinking of posting for the last two weeks but first I wanted to see if this was another start but don't finish kind of deal. BUT I am happy to say two weeks in and I feel better than I have in a very long time.

I joined Skinny Meg's 12 week challenge. So far I'm doing great. I'm down 7.6 lbs in those first two weeks. My group has set mini goals and we have lots of group wide challenges. We are going to share all the foods we eat on Thursdays and I want to share more here for future reference.

I've been following IIFYM. I did not pay to get my numbers done. I used the calculator and got an idea of how it worked then searched and read in some Facebook posts of ladies that are close to my size and goals. I didn't want to pay just know I'm not always the best at sticking with things but this is working really great.

I'm totally not hungry at all and it's more of a reverse psychology thing for me. I can't tell you the last time I saw how many calories are in an item. I can however tell you the protein, fats and carbs.
It's a real change of thinking from a girl who has dieted her whole life!!
I have been serious about prepping. Proteins are the real deal. I try to have several options and work to meet that goal first. Usually if that is met everything else falls into place.
I have these ham muffins made up and ready. I don't remember where the exact recipe is but there are hundreds on pinterest.
They are just 20g of ham, 40g of egg beaters, 5g of mozzarella and some have 10g of onions in them. Cook for 20 at 350 and they are good. I weighed out each ingredient as I add to the pan. I just added then hit tare. This is the easiest way for me to cook with iifym.
Weigh ALL the foods is a must. I works well for someone who is OCD or controlling like me.
Speaking of controlling, both my kids went to church camp this week. This is my son's first time to go without his was rough. Nobody liked me by the end of the day. My husband said this is perfect for me....
Yep that's me.
We have finally finished baseball season and I am recommitting to me, myself and my kids. I want to get back to blogging. I started here to keep a record of our life and one day will have something to look back on. We are setting some goals for ourselves and I will share what I have come up with for myself later this week.

Friday, March 13, 2015

From My Side of the Computer

When I started blogging, three years ago now, it was meant to be a journal of me getting healthy.

It hasn't went as planned as per usual. I am still trying and wanting and hoping and starting over and saying this is it and starting a new workout plan and trying new eating plans and get the picture. It is all sooo hard. Even though I want something so bad I just can't seem to get it together. I want for things to work and I know it is going to take some serious commitment on my end. I see others whom I love to follow and from my side of the computer they make it look so easy.

From my side of the computer it, I think I can do that, so I will start a new plan and then my legs are sore and then it rains and then I forget to prepare and then the kids want pizza...again you get the picture.

From my side of the computer, iPhone or whatever I just wish I could finally get some of that commitment. That's where the hard part really lies. I know what to do, I know what to eat, and I know how to do it. I just can't get it to all stick.

I so badly want to fit back into my clothes. I refuse to buy more. I have so many that I can't wear so I wear the same few over and over again just looking at all the others hanging in the closet.

From my side of the computer, I always say well Monday I will start fresh. This week has went pretty well. A few bad choices but not a blow out but today is Friday and I am going to recommit today. It Friday the 13th at that. What better day to start again.

After the few health scares I have had over the last year it is finally time to do some of what I see, follow, love watching, and know to do on my side of the computer!!!

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Hello 2015...

Yes, I am 71 days in but oh well :)

I have really missed all the blogs I followed lately and missed connecting with everyone so I thought I would give a quick update.

Not too much has changed around here other than adding two TEMPORARILY  to the family. Two of my nephews are staying with us for a little while. It has been an adjustment for all especially my son. We are trying to make things as normal as possible. If you follow on IG you probably have already noticed that.

We also moved in October. My mother in law died in 2013 and my father in law decided he didn't want to stay in the house any longer. We already had a long term plan to move into their house and they in ours but he wanted to go ahead and move. I really feel like he needed a change and there is a lot of work that needs to be done that he just can't do any longer.


When I last posted I had just go my gallbladder taken out. That was really (in my opinion) the first complication I have had with my weight. I say that because my little sister who might weigh a buck had hers out a month after me so I know some gallbladder problems are weight related. But for me I felt like it was weight related.

I also have had to start taking thyroid medicine. I do not know a lot about thyroid issues but I feel like this is another signal that I really need to get my butt in gear.
My kids are getting older every second when I started sharing my story three years ago they were little squirts. Now I have a preteen which is changing everyday and my sweet little baby boy is eight! (well it felt like he was my baby!)
One thing I love more than anything in this world is being a mother. God blessed me tremendously by picking those two out for me. My husband and I are really lucky in the kid department.
I began blogging to keep a journal about how I got healthy and somewhere along the way my view changed as I hope my kids can read this one day and know me and know my desire to be the best I can for them is my main motivation.
Some of my goals for 2015 even though it is March are:
Of course first is getting in better shape
For my daughter and I to run another 5k together
Get financially healthier as well
Do more work on the house: Specifically---build a carport, redo the back porch, along with lots of painting
We have a lot of plans and I think coming back here is a great first step to really getting started.